LostinaCrowd

I wish I knew what you were thinking sitting standing laughing mopeing about in such a seductive stance scraping across my heart a knife across my skin at the crook of my elbow at the base of your neck where you are most sensitive more human that I will ever be more life than she will ever see dorwning in a bottle with sleep in her eyes and a sad grin on her face brave for the world that she created that shuns her only daughter who can't stand the sight of her own face or her bones her skin that doesn't fit her body that isn't her own thinking sitting standing laughing mopeing existing.

wherever did my love go? a ghost of my former sitting laughing running jumping loving SCREAMING RUNNING POUNDING my head will never stop this pain that i feel that we feel that's killing you faster than I can write this apology for all the wrongs i have commited against Your person people places things that we hold in our hands spilling like sand slipping like water shattering like the glass from the window in your room that refracts the most amazing lighting i have ever seen and guides it to your face in a manner no god can even hope to create again and again and again the ringing in my ears (i think it's guilt, love, fuzzy reception of the